Oh, dear. I haven't posted in forever.

Fighting PTSD and PPD. My therapist suggested meds, but I want to wait just a bit longer and attack what I feel is the root problem. Many of my symptoms (aching joints, inability to lose weight, massive hair loss beyond usual postpartum hair loss, depression, loss of labido, spotting, etc) are indicative of low progesterone levels. I know when I was fighting infertility and when I got pregnant with Gabe, my progesterone levels were very low. I'm taking a supplement that is supposed to help my body regulate and increase my progesterone. I've been taking it since the beginning of December and am starting to see some improvement. If I don't see continued improvement by the end of January then I will consider short term usage of an anti-depressant.

Needless to say, I'm not enjoying the holiday season. Which makes me feel horribly guilty because it is Gabe's first Xmas. With Kevin we made such a big deal out of his first...and that doesn't seem fair. *sigh*

Gabey is fighting a head cold, courtesy of big brother. He is tall and skinny--his last growth spurt at the end of November shot him up to 60th% (25 inches) for height and 10 percentile for weight (12lb 5 oz). Hopefully he'll gain some now that he's stretched out. He's an excellent sleeper at night. He'll be 24 weeks on Xmas. He seems to be doing okay in general for milestones but is a bit behind in some of the mobility ones. That is to be expected for a 34 week preemie. He just started showing us that he can roll from his tummy to his back--but boy does he hate tummy time! He appears to be starting teething (god, not that again!!!). He loves listening to Kevin sing to him and listening to us read Sandra Boynton books. He's starting to nap decently, but it's hard to work it around Kevin's pre-school schedule.

Here's a picture from Thanksgiving.